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26Jan10

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Moving

22Jan10

Hello there,
I realized that I havent posted anything in ages, and I think that I’ll be moving my bloggage to a new username. I don’t ID with this one anymore.

I’ll post a link to my new one once I’ve created it.


Right now I am sitting in the would be workout room of the beach house my uncle rented for break ($40,000 for 2 weeks), using the Bowflex as a typing desk.

The workout room is where my immediate family and I have set up camp. I sleep on the most comfortable 2×6 cot in the world next to the glass doors that lead to the pool deck. From there it is less than 200 feet to the beach where took the picture you see here.

Its been gorgeous all week, with temperatures ranging from 55 to 78.

Why do I live in Ohio? I hate the cold, and the snow, and the streetlights. I love it here.

I hope that when I “grow up” I can afford to live someplace warm. I hope that my mother’s right in saying that I’m going places. I hope I don’t die in Ohio.

We’re leaving in 2 days. I don’t want to, but at the same time I want to be home for New Year’s Eve. It’s one of the few holidays an atheist can celebrate unabashedly.

 I want to say happy holidays, but that would seem odd to me. So instead I’ll say that, to every one who spent their holiday in unsatisfactory weather: you have my sympathies.


Crazy Alien!!

16Dec09

This is a product of my slacking in my Desktop Publishing class.

Good thing I have an A. :)


there is no way my high school should be playing “Oh Night Divine” or “Joy to the Word” over the morning announcements.

I understand that everyone is extremely happy about winter break coming at the end of the week, but there is no reason for a public school to start getting all religious on us just because a Christian holiday happens to be coming up.

I would have no problem whatsoever with them playing something like “Jingle Bells” or something like that but these two are sooo Christian.

I’m sick and tired of having religion shoved down my throat where ever I go. I’ve made my peace with the pledge of allegiance (even though i still think indoctrination is never okay) but this is a little much.

Plus, the majority of the high school’s population is Muslim!! It doesn’t make any sense that they should be playing religious, Christmas music around Christian holidays, but offer no acknowledgement of Islamic holidays.

Not that I think they should bother with any religion; it has no place in school.

What happened to separation of church and state? I, as an atheist, should not have to walk into a state-owned building (payed for by taxpayers who ar not all Christian), that I have  attend (if I hope to have a future), hearing the screeching of a church choir.

But that’s America for you.


:)

08Dec09

It’s funny.

 Sometimes I’ll have days where writing a good solid sentence is like pulling a rock out of my brain with my fingertips. And sometimes I’ll have days where sit down and write almost three pages in 20 minutes.

Today was the second kind.


I’m so glad that I didn’t buy a Mac.  You see, today a rather close friend of mine asked me if I knew a way to transfer music files from her iPod to her computer. I, being a rather computer savvy individual, had seen an article a while back on the matter, and had been planning to use its method for quite some time. I proceeded to send her a link to the article and then attempt to use it myself.

As it turns out, it is impossible to access the music files manually when the iPod in question is an iPod Touch. In other words: Apple figured out how easy this was, and proceeded to make it impossible on their newer versions.

I now see what my brother meant when he said that Apple products weren’t nearly as user friendly as they seemed. Apple makes it so that people who don’t know how to do anything on a computer will have an easy time, but allows for no user based customization.

Apple’s obvious argument for making file transfer via iPod impossible is that some people would undoubtedly use it for piracy. The thing is, there are many legitimate and 100% legal reasons for a person to want to move files from their iPod to their computer. For instance:  Maybe your computer crashed and the only place any of your music exists is on the iPod itself. Maybe you got a new computer and simply don’t possess the patience one would need to burn the files using CDs. Maybe you don’t own an external hard drive with the capacity to hold your entire iTunes library.

It’s rather insulting that Apple assumes that its customers are criminals.

Furthermore, if someone really wanted to duplicate the files all they would need to do is use a USB.

My recommendation to anyone in a similar predicament to mine is to buy yourself an external hard drive (you can get a nice sized one for roughly $50) and back up your iTunes library onto it. It’ll save you a lot of grief.


I just got back form my sister’s house. She’d invited us over for dinner.

The awkwardness between my nephew and I continues, although he made an effort (however small) to make conversation. I can tell it’s going to be a long time before things get ironed out between us, if they ever do.

It’s amazing to me how distant we got, and how fast it happened. They say that Geminis are like two people, I guess this is his other side.

I don’t know why this blog is coming out so choppy. I guess that’s how my thoughts are right now. Oh well.

For some reason when ever I write about this it makes my throat constrict, so I’m gonna stop now.

I’m done.


On Writing…

28Nov09

I haven’t written anything worthwhile in five months.

The logical response to that statement is obviously: So? Start again.

The problem is that even the thought of staring at a blank page or blank word document frightens the hell out of me right now. Where once I would see possibility I now only see doubt.

The two clubs I’m in at school have been subtly nagging me (or at least that’s what it feels like to the paranoid soul) to submit or read something I’ve done at a meeting, the problem once again with that is that right now there is nothing. Nor is there time to complete anything worthwhile.

That last sentence was a lie. There’s time. There’s always time. I spent today cleaning.

Yeah, you read me right cleaning. Something I never do unless forced by prospect of torture. I could have written today, but I didn’t. Why?

Because part of me doesn’t believe I can.


and going to see new moon tonight.

And yes, I am sacrificing sleep to go see a bad movie. Why? Because I already sacrificed 3 weeks reading the (first three) books.

Did I like them? Honestly no. They were easy to read, but they entirely lacked substance. I resent authors like Meyer and Rowling for exactly this reason. I know I could do better, but what’s the chance anything I write being read, let alone one hundredth as popular. To be perfectly juvenile it’s not fair. 

Maybe I sound pretentious in saying I could do better, but it doesn’t change anything. Writing with substance isn’t read, unless Oprah happens to pick it up.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m extremely insecure about my writing as of this moment, especially considering the declining quality of these blog posts and my utter lack of readers. I haven’t had time to work on it, you see.

I know, excuses excuses, but I can’t be expected to maintain a 3.59 GPA , let alone bring it up, while following a dream. A dream which more and more is looking like a whim.

Now I’m depressed. Why do these blogs always depress me? Fail.




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